Please bare with me

Im pregnant 31 weeks to be exact and i was with my ex for 7 years!! Ttc and nth..i thought i would never have kids I slipped up with a friend

( yes i cheated) and i had sex with him and my ex the same day.. 4 weeks after that i found out i was pregnant...

I told my friend right away i was pregnant .. I didnt tell my ex untill we got into a heated argument i blurted out " and thats why you'll never see your child".. Things got physical.. I went and got a restraining order on him and got him out of my house he moved out of state.

My friend was supportive and even went with me to my doc visits and stuff but thing is he has a whole family at home.. I eventually got sick of the whole situation and told him i was done with him as well.. And when the baby is born ill call him for a dna test .

But he wouldn't listen he would call and call and text i ignored him

About two weeks after that.. My friends came into town and we had a girls night out.. I got dolled up and we had a blast this is when i meet lets call him Jay..

So jay came up to me.. We talked for a bit exchanged numbers and i went on about my night... I got a few text from guys i exchanged numbers with but his stuck out out so i replied to him

A week later we went on a date, and then another date.. And another he was such a sweet heart and a gentleman.. Lil did he know i was pregnant.. I didnt tell him.. I didnt feel the need to unless i seen it was going some where in which it was.. So one Saturday evening he calls me and asked was i doing anything and if not would i like to hang out with him.. I said sure but finally invited him over .. I didnt feel like going out

Well he came over we ate and chilled watching movies and cuddling.. Then BAM! my door swings open and all i hear is "WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS" i hopped up and was scared as shit i didn't know wtf was going on.. Apparently jay forgot to lock the door and it was the friend he was coming over for the 100th time

So anyway my friend was furious asking me a thousand questions.. And then start trying to question jay.. "How long have yall been fucking?"

(We havent even slept together at this point) and why are you here.. Blah blah.. I had to step in the middle because looked like they were about to fight.. I told the friend to GTFO NOW OR IM CALLING THE POLICE.. He said no not until you talk to me .. Then he looks at Jay and says..

"Did she tell you she's PREGNANT yea so get out of my baby mama's house"

The look on jays face ill never forget.. He was shocked but looked let down i felt so bad thats not how i wanted him to find out.. Jay put on his shoes and walked out..

The next day i called him and asked can we meet up to talk to my Suprice he said yes.. I apologized and told him everything.. About my ex.. About The friend and the baby and not knowing who the father is.. He straight up asked me what was i going to do.. I said im going to keep my baby! He said no.. About these men.. I said i want nth to do with them.. And i want to move on and raise my miracle baby on my own.. He just looked at me for a long time and said .. Or you sure? I said yes.. Why?

He then stated Me being pregnant didnt change how he felt about me.. And still wanted to see where things went and if it did go further he had no problems with stepping up to the plate.. I was shocked.. Happy but still on guard.. Well fast forward six months later Jay proposed to me i said yes! He is a amazing man and wants to be a father and has been with me every step of the way..

Then my ex.. My abusive.. Ex keeps calling and texting and won't leave me alone.. We were together for 8 long years but 2 years ago it was already going down hill.. My ex is the only one that does not know he might not be the father.. But he suspects it.. I hated him.. But also miss him still.. Well he came back into town a couple a days ago a begged for me to meet up with him.. I agreed and we talked and laughed like old times... Brought back some old feelings. Even cried together.. Then he just said it " Even if the baby is not mines.. Ill still accept you.. I love you and ill do anything to have you back"

Now i wish i would have never met up with him.. I cant stop thinking about what he said and everything we have been threw together.. My fiance has notice ive been acting weird and keeps asking me what's wrong ... Last night as we were getting ready for bed.. He started to tell me how much he loves me and ask me not to leave him and how he loves the baby.. And wants nth more just to be a happy family.. I felt horrible hearing that because now i cant stop thinking about my ex and my baby..

My thing is.. I leave my fiance who knows this is not my baby but fully accepts me and baby and is a great guy from what i see so far.. But there are some things that i dont like..

Go back to my ex who thinks its his baby but thinks its a possibility its not.. Only thing is my ex was abusive somtimes and vows to get help and change....

Im torn in two in a messed in situation that i created and i feel like shit i cry about it all the time.. For the sake of my baby

Edit ( whores and hoes have sex for money and sleep with multiple men day in and out) i slept with one man for 8 years after us taking a six month break and being away from his abuse.. I had time to think.. He came back and we tried to work it out... But it was still the same even worse.. So i said fuck it.. But slipped up with my friend.. Wtf.. Half of yall done slept with or have had more partners than me.. But im a hoe.. Okaay

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