More children

It's bittersweet to know that the twins are the only babies I'll be having. My husband doesn't really want more after dealing with twin newborns and since the risk of having multiples is higher after having one set already. I still personally wish I could have a planned pregnancy this time and do everything right this time. I got pregnant at 17. My boyfriend (now husband was much older than me). So of course I couldn't do a pregnancy announcement or gender reveal. I had an OK baby shower. I just want to have a planned pregnancy and try for a girl since I only have boys. I just want to be able to be happy to find out I'm pregnant. I want to have people be happy for me when I announce that I'm expecting. But I won't get that. It's sad that I missed out on those things.