Miscarriage support..... 🥺😢

I’ve been having a hard time dealing with my miscarriage. As early as it was... I was pregnant, and I lost my baby.

I keep thinking why, wondering what if, wishing I could go back... but nothing would have changed what happened.

I don’t know how to deal with this.

I cry, I burst into sorrow, I clench my chest and squeeze all that hurt. I have a sadness inside me that won’t go away... I need to deal with it.

If there are any... words, or advice, or anything... someone who can relate, someone who can tell me it’s okay, someone to let me know... I will... be a mommy someday. 😭

That’s my biggest fear. All this work, all this trying, after how many years (already almost 3 years....) and I get left with nothing? It wouldn’t be fair.

The other day, I looked at my husband, and with tears in my eyes, I said “what if.... I never get to be a mom?”🥺

And he looked at me, with those big beautiful blue eyes and said “Babe. You will. You are a Mommy already, and if we don’t get to have our own... we’ll adopt a whole bunch of kids! You can save a child’s life my love.”

I burst into tears. I’m crying now just typing this out...

I want to see those big beautiful eyes, (or maybe even mine💁🏻‍♀️ lmao) when I look at my child. I want him to have his own legacy, to grow with and watch grow...

I’m so sorry ladies. I really need some help. I need to go talk to someone, but I have SUCH a hard time opening up about this.... I don’t know who to talk to or where to go.

So... I came to you’s. 💞