I was 16 and you were 35. You are my sisters husband. I know I was dumb but I needed the money. I was struggling to pay for my car and having problems at home with my divorced parents. You knew I liked taking pictures and knew I wasn't that bad at it. One day you asked me to take certain pictures of you to make a calendar for my sister as a surprise. I was very skeptical but you said you'd pay me. After a long while I finally agreed. My first clue should have been when you asked me to take them on your phone. My second clue should have been when they kept mysteriously deleting on accident. One day when we were alone in your car, you asked me to jerk you off. I didn't want to and kept telling you no but you wouldn't listen. You pulled down your pants anyway and started to do it yourself. Finally I agreed, just to make you stop and get it over with. I can't the image of your cum on my hand out of my mind. It's been 3 years since then and I still think about it. How disgusting and horrible I felt about myself. After that you kept finding ways to be naked around me. You would say "Well you've seen it before." I felt highly uncomfortable and worried. You had never even paid me for the photos. One day I had enough of all of it and wrote a letter to my sister explaining what happened. She was so mad at me! You told her that it was all a lie and that I was jealous. You said that I was scared that you'd take her away from me once you guys got married. (They were engaged at the time). My sister didn't believe me, she believed you. I was so confused. Why would you lie? I felt hurt, scared, alone, I felt like a monster.

My sister cut me out of her life for over a year before she slowly starting to reconnect with me. Every now and again she'll be completely evil to me. She'll say nasty things or keep things from me, yet she'll tell the rest of the family. For example when she got pregnant with her second child.

It hurts when she did/does these things but I brought it onto myself for going along with everything when I should have just told you no in the first place. It's my fault. I wish I could go back and change everything.

You guy's are still married and I make sure to never be alone with you again. I just can't help but wonder if I'm the first person you've done that with, or if there are others, or will be others..