honestly i feel like i wasn’t made for love. like maybe it’s because i recently realized that i’m scared of commitment or something but i really enjoy putting myself first and worrying about me instead of dealing with the hardships of a relationship. i’ve had two past relationships. first one turned out like shit. second one was like a dream but it also turned out like shit LOL. but ever since then i’ve felt the same with every guy i’ve talk to. i feel like it’s pointless at the moment and i’m just too lazy to text them LOL. my most recent one was basically a rebound and tbh it was more lust than love. maybe i just need to wait longer for the right person for me. 🤷‍♀️

also i saw my ex the other day 😳 i ignored him and i wanna text him to see what’s up but like i also don’t wanna talk to him at the same time yk