I’m 19 now but I met my boyfriend when I was 17. We hit it off back in college and we were so in love then. Everything was perfect.

Then my school decided to start a new internship program which separated us for 2 months and he lives all across town so we’d hardly see each other all we had was social media but you know how it is when you desperately need someone.

While on the internship I was seduced by one of my co-workers but I have to admit that deep down I wanted it .. as soon as it happened I called my boyfriend but I couldn’t get a word out and hung up. I needed a way to tell him but something came over him and he went through my phone and from there it all went down hill.

I broke his trust and he broke mine when he had sex with another girl on a private beach. But then I’d have to say it’s fair right ? I mean I love him so much and anybody in his position would be upset with me for not spitting it out then and the fact that I wanted it he couldn’t forgive me.

4 months passed and we still talk and some days I have hope that he would love me again but every time I try I end up crying myself to sleep because he still haven’t forgiven me .

Today I’m sure that there’s no way of going back but we send days together sleeping together and everything and I can still feel the love ... I can sense it’s still there ... he says he’s over it and he has forgiven me but I tried to get back with him and he said that it was too late ... I don’t want to give up but he makes me feel like I should because he sounds like he’s only with me for my company cuz after all we were like best friends but he says he wants to settle for friends ... should I just accept the friend zone and suppress my love for him or should I try to get him back. I love him too much I can’t let him go please I need advice.