I feel like this whole week has been one meltdown after the next...

Monday would have been my niece's 8th birthday. She passed away in a car accident on June 7th. That evening my mom decided it would be a great opportunity to send me pictures of perspective tombstones for my older brother's grave. He would have been 35 next month...6 days before my 30th.

Tuesday, AF was scheduled and has been like clockwork for months! So I was cautiously optimistic...

Wednesday came and I felt like I'd been hit by a truck. AF came and it hurt to move and left me curled up in the shower in a full blown meltdown. I was snippy with my husband that left me feeling like crap on my way to work because i had to gobout of town and wouldn't see him until Thursday night. He was super sweet about it and just everything this week...this whole year...just always. I've lost my grandmother, my older brother, and my niece this year...in the course of a month (May 11th - June 11th) and I just want a damn baby already 🤣

All of this is hard. I know we've only been trying for 6 months but it wears me out and it's so difficult to distract myself sometimes.