I am at a complete and utter loss right now. My d&c is schedule tomorrow for 7:30 am. I hate this feeling i hate the fact that we have lost our babies(all of us women) as man and angry and upset that i am . i am not mad at god for this. I have a feeling that my Lupus had part to do with this . the hardest part is really coming to terms with it. My baby that i have wanted for years is now gone. I know one day we will have our rainbow baby but that will never cover the way i feel. I just want my baby back!!