hey so this summer i broke up with my boyfriend of a couple of months bc i kinda just stopped liking him like that idk + we hadn't have seen each other for a month, and wouldn't for another month + ever since then i've been getting more & more insecure. it started off because i got braces the day before i went back to school, as well as the fact that my hair was blue over the summer & the hairdresser tried to dye it blonde but it kinda went grey-green. i hadn't seen anyone for 2 months because i was away the entire summer so i was super self conscious, oh + i was going into 6form, so a bunch of ppl would see me for the first time looking like crap.

one person asked my bestfriend if my hair went grey from the 'stress of losing my ex' which made me feel both self conscious + guilty, and then the other day my ex told me my hair looked like mould + was like 'why don't you dye it back. i liked it better brown, why do you keep dying it?' like stfu i don't dress/look how do i do for you. also when we were dating he told me i should wear more makeup like from prom + it made me feel awful bc it was like he was saying i'm ugly + tbh ever since then i've not felt comfortable in myself.

sorry for ranting & ik probably no one'll read this but i needed to get it out of my system i guess. thanks :) x