I’m over this sleep regression. I honestly never heard of these regressions and leaps before I had a baby and I wish I had that way I could’ve been more prepared. I honestly feel like I’m dying and that’s not being dramatic. I’m so tired. I constantly have headaches and feel so weak. I don’t get any sleep or naps. Today my daughter napped for about a half an hour instead of her 15 minute nap and I got a nap in but that’s all. I don’t have help really and when people do try to help, my daughter wants no part of it. She will scream with other people and doesn’t do well at all and then they give her back to me because she’s super attached to me. My boyfriend works night shifts all week and sleeps for a few when he gets home and he helps me when he can, he’ll let me shower, eat something since my daughter barely lets me eat😩, and relax but my daughter gets cranky for him and just wants me constantly. I try to give him something of mine to put by her so she has my scent but that doesn’t help. Nap time and bed time are a nightmare!!! I spend hours trying to get this child to sleep and she fights her sleep so hard and wakes up after a few minutes. I’m at a loss. I’m thankful for my boyfriend for being there when he’s able to be but it’s mostly me and my daughter. I have lost who I was before I became a mom. I don’t want to do anything and I have no energy or motivation at all. I’m constantly in a mood and want no part of interacting with people or going out to places. I think I’ve been dealing with a little bit of postpartum depression and anxiety but I’ve also dealt with bipolar depression for years. I would never hurt my baby or anyone, I love her more than anything and she’s my world. I’m just so tired physically and mentally. This sleep regression is taking a toll and tonight I just had to put her in her bassinet with her sound machine and a pacifier and let her go to sleep on her own. She fussed a bit but I was always right there to give her the pacifier back and tell her it’s okay. I can’t stay awake anymore and rocking her to sleep kills my back. I don’t want to risk falling asleep and her suffocating or falling or something. I knew her bassinet was a safe place, there’s nothing else in there with her and I was right there checking on her. She was changed and fed/burped. I wouldn’t let her cry it out but if she’s just barely fussing I stand there and make sure she’s okay. She fights her sleep really bad. She’s 17 weeks, I don’t know how long we have to go but I hope it ends soon. It’s been 4 weeks and it’s just getting worse day by day. I’m trying some gentle sleep training methods but so far nothing. I’m so tired 😭