I don't even know how I'm supposed to handle the pain and anger I feel. My husband and I have actively been trying to get pregnant for 2 years now. We've done 6 rounds of clomid, resulted in 2 very early marriages. After the last one in June my Dr sent me to a specialist who diagnosed me with PCOS. We started our first cycle of letrozole the end of July and 3 weeks later I started getting beautiful positive pregnancy tests. My first hcg was only 140 but was the highest we've had yet, 3 days later it was only 172 and Dr's said that things probably aren't going to go as we hoped, once again we were devastated...5 days later my number was at 604 and 2 days after that 1169. So back up the rollercoaster we went, first ultrasound at 5w4d we saw the sac but no baby yet and the Dr said every looked and measured normally. Went back for another scan at 7w1d and the fetal pole only measured 5w5d....once again crushed, Dr said I could have ovulated later than I thought but with taking the medicine and tracking my temperature I knew that wasn't the case. So we went yesterday at 8w1d to hopefully be measuring 6w5d but the baby was only measuring 5w6d and we saw a flicker of a heartbeat...will return next week to confirm no more growth of my sweet baby and decide what to do from there 😭 I am just crushed, angry and empty feeling, I don't know how to keep handling these heartbreaking losses. I have several friends expecting their 3rd and 6th babies and I can't even get 1 healthy pregnancy.... I am so thankful for this group and I know I'm not alone, I just don't know how much more I can take. I am terrified of having a d&c if needed, I can't fathom having to physically harm my baby, I want things to happen naturally but I also want it over with so we can hopefully get some answers so we can keep trying....any advice with having to medically intervene? I appreciate the time you've spent reading this and I'm so sorry if you have gone through or are going through this heartbreak too...