Loosing my virginity to myself!

Adajeen
I don't know if anyone else has done this. I had started masturbating at a younger age and was able to buy a vibrator. I ended up loosing my virginity to myself 😂 but I stopped using it for a long time. My hymen tore so I bled. It tore again after having sex for the first time. 
FYI: your hymens don't shrivel off and cease to exist. They just stretch out. 
 Anyone with the same experience?