Nervous breakdown

I think I'm having / had my first breakdown as a mom of 2. My husband left for a few hours so it was my first time I've been hone for so long with the two of them. My 2 1/2 y o was extra clingy but that's just normal " terrible twos" behavior and adjusting to not being the only child anymore. Understandable.

I thought everything was going decently. Nope. She decided to climb in a chair and eat freaking lotrimin while I was nursing her brother. I dont have any idea how much she ingested. We thought it was very very far out of reach.

Hello Poison Control.

Well my husband is no longer allowed to leave because I am apparently incapable of watching both children.

If you have any doubts about easing children, you have to be doing a better job than me. Lol

I just dont feel like I have enough love to spread around. How am I supposed to always keep an eye on both. I'm stressed.