Everyone just thought I was a shitty mom

I was trying my best and was doing awesome according to basically everyone else but those closest to me all thought I was a shitty mom when I was actually spiraling deeper and deeper into postpartum depression.

I’m doing my best to come out of it but it kills me that my meager efforts are still being judged so harshly.

I’m trying not to resent that no one cared enough to actually help. After an emotionally traumatic birth with pretty extensive tearing my husband went back to work four days postpartum and no one helped. He didn’t want my mom there so I was alone. Trying to fix everything.

I get that my husband is having to step up and carry more, but part of the fucking depression is that he was too busy to help me with most anything when I was drowning. He’s gotten my in laws all judgmental of me over how much he’s doing at this moment when he didn’t do jack shit for months after the baby was born except whine whout how I fell asleep too early and didn’t wanna have sex often enough and wasn’t into it enough when I tried.

I just needed to rant.

I’m not a shitty wife or mom. My hormones just went off the rails for a bit and I’m trying the best I can. Everyone who wants to judge me for that is shitty, and it can be their problem because I cant Make it mine anymore.