Body dysmorphia

I am struggling with eating enough throughout the day. I get a meal in probably 2 hours after waking up and then I go several hours before eating again and the pattern repeats itself all day

When I do eat I eat whatever’s in sight. So of course I’m eating mostly carbs and high fat foods because that’s what’s usually quick to put together. I know I’m not getting enough protein or water.

Husband doesn’t cook, never has. So I’m left with taking care of baby, pumping, cleaning, and cooking.

I’m 5’9 and weighing less than I did pre baby and least I’ve weighed in the last several years and I hate it! I’ve lost any and all muscle I had built before getting pregnant and my body just looks awful. No booty, mom pooch and large breastfeeding boobs, needless to say I am so self conscious about it and I have anxiety issues bc of it.

I don’t know what I want out of this post other than for someone to hear me out? Any other mommas who can relate?