Ok so I'm 25 with two kids. My youngest father and I was together 5 years on and off 🙄 long story short I rush to get a place so we can live together. Got pregnant he started tripping out about my pass way before him. He started w/verbal and emotional abuse. After the baby was born he started the physical abuse. Broke up for 6months got back together abuse some more then he injured me the morning of my pawpaw funeral locked up in prison my dumb self stared back talking to him. He got out shit really got real smh fights started getting worse and verbal abuse I was throwunf up 3 months straight didn't miss a day. Call myself staying with my people for a day or few hours just for him to smell my breath and vagina when I get home. Smh power got cut off cause I lost everything when he came back in the picture & he wasn't helping financial helping so I sent his ass back to his mama house but for some damn reason I'm worried about him, in my feelings about him with someone & if he'll do right by the next 🙄 I just want the pain to go away and the thoughts gone. I wanna be happy i have lost myself completely & ugh I'm just stuck. Oh & he smoke fake weed as well we fought about that if u didn't have the money to get it🤦🏾‍♀️