It feels like all I am to my husband is a fuck buddy. I don’t know the last time he ever just hugged me with out grabbing my butt or kissed me with out trying to turn it to more or even cuddled with me with out grabbing my boobs or trying to put my hand on his junk. I am SO tired of it. I am craving something deeper. I just want to feel like I have a connection deeper than sex. I’ve told him all of this and he just snaps and says I should have been a nun or that I should leave him. He will use sex as a bargaining tool. Such as if I want to go out to dinner he will say he’ll take me out if I give him head. When I get upset he always says it was just a joke but I know it’s not. I’m tired of feeling like a live in prostitute and I don’t know what to do. I’ve tried to talk to him and it falls on deaf ears.

Update: I tried to talk to him again and he totally shut down. He refused to talk to me and turned me saying that I had a lot to get done around on me. He told me he thought I was too busy to talk to him and he busied himself with other things. I’m starting to really believe he doesn’t want to be with me. He just likes a steady stream of sex.