I'm posting on here because I have no one else to go to.. and I just need advice/vent. In August my boyfriend went away for college, we didn't break up because we love each other, I trusted him, and I knew that he was sober and would make good decisions. that wasn't until I couldn't get a hold of him for 4 days. yesterday was when I got worried sick and started reaching out to his friends, they said he wasnt okay. I called him a bunch, he said "stop fucking calling me". that hurt. I called him more. I snooped on his Snapchat (he gave me his password) and I haven't done that in 6 months. because I now trusted him, well I found that he was sharing locations with his friends and not me, he had a private story that I knew nothing about, and there was pictures of him fucked up. it broke my heart. the one thing I asked for was communication. a text good morning or goodnight, a call at least once a week! I am not that needy so I tried to give him the most space he wanted despite being so far away. he finally texted me back telling me he's killing himself slowly, that he has been so high he can't function. I have no idea what to do. I have never gotten into a fight with him so far away. I am extremely worried, but I am also hurt, because he couldn't fucking tell me anything. he was hiding everything from me. I just don't know what to do. should I give him space? I gave him space for 4 fucking days and he didn't want to reply. I've given him more space after he texted me. I am just hurt.