Did i get played or was there genuine love?

So five or so months ago, I was working ( i work at a grocery store), and met this boy who worked in the department next to me. We began to talk and at first, i didnt even think of having feelings for him, i had just got over someone who didnt really like me, but my stupid feelings were hard to get rid of. He was super kind and really interested in knowing what i was about and genuinely wanted to get to know me more. He'd run over to me while i was working on the sales floor and ask me random questions, and he'd tell me stories about his life and i got to know him quite well. he was an open book.

i began to catch feelings once a few weeks of talking while on breaks and running around our store were more and more frequent. He was so kind to me, asking how i was, how my day went, genuinely kind. I never told him i liked him until we began to hang out outside of work. He asked me to meet his family. i didnt think anything of it since he had told me that he always invited friends to family dinners, which turns out, was not true. i asked him to come to church with me, which i thought he would decline since he was not a christian, but an agnostic. he agreed to come happily, and finally after that day came, he invited me over his house and he confessed he liked me alot. that i was "So different than all the other girls hes been with," that "I'm just so beautiful and gentle and sweet and quiet and he loved that" and i confessed my feelings back to him. I began to find his curly brown hair adorable and his dark green eyes really breathtaking. His personality really hit the nail on the coffin though. The most respectful, Genuine, Kind hearted boy i have ever laid my eyes on. I had to tell him that i didnt think we'd be able to date this quickly since my mother was strictly, "christian man, or nothing". I begged with her to accept him, and she made an ultimatum, "You guys be friends for one year, and if he comes to church and treats you like a queen, then i will most certainly allow you guys to date. If he is not willing to do that, he is not that serious about you," and i told him that, with him replying, "I'm extremely serious bout you Nat, i will wait the year. i really really am into you." and i got all excited and we became really close friends. But, soon after, he began to push the friendship boundaries, touching, kissing my cheeks, holding my hands, etc. I was shocked, and told him we had to be careful.

i loved feeling loved, i lacked physical affection for 19 years of my life so it felt strange, but really good. So he toned it down, but took off once again, calling me, texting me, taking my first kiss in july and would cop a feel a few times each time we would hang out. It would happen so often, i just let it slide until i got too uncomfortable. He definitely knew when i wasnt feeling something and he would stop.

One day, he sent me a text, saying,

"We should tone it down natalie, lets be friendly in public, but in private we can still cuddle and kiss and be lovey dovey. i agreed, and we continued on. After multiple times of breaking those rules, he texted me again,

"we just need to stay friendly in both private and in public because i really care about you and i dont wanna ruin this for us, im looking out for our future together." it was hard for me to accept, but if it meant us being together in the end, i was okay with it. Soon after that was said, he was back at it, kissing me, feeling me up, whatever guys do, except sex. i told him i was saving myself for marriage, so i would stop him when he would try to take my clothes off. he'd apologize and quickly go back to kissing my neck or my lips. like i was soooo in love, i told him everything about me and vise versa. but then mid August, a whole week, i had felt like absolute shit because he would not contact me, not want to hang out, not want to talk at work, and would call me "dude" "bro" "sport" "champ" "kid" and not "Baby" or "princess" "Peanut" whatever his cute little names for me were. and every time we went out, it was because i would beg him and he'd complain the entire time and i would get angry and we'd end the night tense and i would go home and cry and i finally texted him,

"do you still even like me?"

"yes but only as a friend. i value our friendship more,"

"WHAT" and he told me basically that

• He's a very intimate, affectionate, and sexual being (idk what this had to do with me, but that was one reason to break it off)
• We have different goals in life
• He's going to another school 45 minutes away from me with "new people"

and other stupid excuses on how he wanted to drop things. It shocked me because he acts like we never were a thing, i'm head over heels in love with him and he told me multiple times right before ending things that he was "in love " and "falling for me hard". but now its like he did not have feelings, he lost those feelings in like three days no joke. Like it makes me think there was somebody else, or that he figured out that he wasnt gonna get sex from me for a while and decided that there are plenty of girls who'd kindly give it to him. or he was just using me for the summer and then called it off to hoe around like he did a year before.

Did i get played? Idk if he actually loved me..