Hi all,

I've been wanting to post here for sometime but I've always been a little nervous, but now I've got the courage to post this.

Me and my partner have been together since June last year and we're getting married next month. We'd been trying for a baby for just over a year when we found out that my partner has zero sperm count due to atrophied testicles.

This was devastating for the both of us but we picked ourselves up and decided that we would go down the adoption route after we got married. But now I'm leaning more towards wanting to try a donor but my partner is against this as he sees it as 'cheating' on him, now it's eating away at me.

I want to bring the subject up again but I'm worried about his reaction, if it was the other way around I would happily use a donor egg. This is now making me upset to the point where I can't sleep and bringing back all my anxiety and depression that I'd battled so well against.

I love my partner so much and we have so much respect for each other, but I'm worried this will derail us as a couple.