Today

Today is the 2 year anniversary since my first miscarriage. It’s also baby loss awareness week and world mental health day. No one knows or remembers the significance of today (not even hubby remembers the date).

I’ve been through another 3 miscarriages since, all before 12 weeks. I’ve had 2 natural, 2 d&c, 9 ultrasound scans, an MRI, septum removal surgery and more emotions that I knew was humanly possible.

I’m currently 4 weeks post surgery and waiting for a scan to get the all clear to try again.

I feel like I’ve lost 2 years of happiness and our lives, everyone around me has planned their families and had their first and some second children in this time.

Everyone tells me how strong I am but it’s just a front.

Just needed to share, today is harder than I imagined...