I'm struggling so bad right now

I'm currently 8 weeks 5 days, havent been able to hold anything down since about 6 weeks. In those 2 weeks I've lost 8 pounds, have stopped being able to hold down saltine crackers, water, pedialyte, literally anything that ever gave me relief. I'm so malnourished I get dizzy spells like crazy, I've been throwing up stomach acid all day today, I can barely get out of bed to go to work. Im struggling to take care of myself, I can probably shower once a week and that's because I'm so neasous I sit in the shower and try to breathe and relax.

My poor SO understands and he tried to help, but he made a comment about me not cooking for him anymore, and not being able to stay up and wait for him like I used to and I just feel so guilty. That's his love language, acts of affirmation, and that's how I show him hes loved and that I appreciate him and his time. I know he feels ignored because all I can do is sleep anymore, I literally sleep, get up and go to work. I dont put on makeup anymore, I barely brush my hair because it just goes into a bun anyways. He tries to get me to eat but I'm always on the verge of puking.

I'm really trying to feel hopeful, that this will end when my second trimester comes around but I honestly feel lost. No one in my family has ever had this hard of a pregnancy, so they dont understand and they cant give advice. The doctors gave me a list of foods I should've been able to keep down but that's not working anymore either. I cant even cry to show my frustration because I'm so dehydrated the tears wont come out.