There’s really no point in beating around the bush, I’m 18 and I suffer from depression and anxiety.

Along with that, as a terrible coping mechanism I use alcohol and drugs to escape my shitty reality for a bit.

The legal drinking age is 18, but every time I drink I take it too far - I get emotional, I get sick, I simply can’t handle it all that well.

I don’t smoke weed much, maybe once every 2 months - however a month ago I had a paranoid episode that involved auditory hallucinations that scared the shit out of me.

Unfortunately, I use MDMA a lot - more than I drink. I started using 6 months ago, and would do it almost every single weekend. It gets to a point where I need to pop 6 to get a REAL high.

I’m starting antidepressants again, and am very committed to completely cutting out mdma and weed and controlling how much alcohol I intake.

If any wiser women have any suggestions on how I’m able to achieve this to better my mental health I’d really appreciate it!!