I finally made it home after delivering my baby girl in the car yesterday, I was 35 weeks she was still born and they told me she didn’t suffer. But I have to walk down the hall to my bedroom where I felt her pushed against me and wonder if that when she took her last breath because I was telling her I can’t wait to meet her. I’m so hurt and I have my baby boy but it’s been a day and I cried at the grocery store, in the car honestly when does it get better. I have questions but I don’t want answers I’m trying not to blame anyone, I harder than I imagine and don’t wish the pain on my worst enemy