Recovering from miscarriage

Kate • 2 years of infertility, 3 miscarriages, 1 Laparoscopy, 2 d&c’s 😢 Rnd 1, 2 & 3 IVF - failed 😫 told donor is our next step then 💥 natural pregnancy BFP Jan21 and baby boy 💙 due Oct 2021 ❤️

I had my D&C at 9 weeks 3 days 2 weeks ago. I still have high HCG now but we decided to bring back the intimacy and BD tonight. I found it quite difficult to be honest. I’m not sure if I was mentally ready to BD again. I was in my head a lot and although I didn’t feel pain I felt a lot of pressure and therefore wasn’t relaxing and enjoying it like usual. Hubby was understanding. Has anyone struggled with returning to BD after a miscarriage and D&C? I was a bit shocked that I did but it’s been a traumatic experience for me having my first positive test then first miscarriage. Think I’m just a bit battered and bruised Mentally and emotionally. Keen to hear from anyone that’s felt like this.