Hiv testing

I am scared to death. I’m always scared when I get tested. I’m going today actually because I had when I put my self through this anxiety. I have two recent slips and I’m not worried about one. But the other guys. Has been with so many females and I’m very scared. Because he actually made a fucking joke about having it. And I was crying and scared so I waited a month I haven’t have any symptoms. Untill now I’m not if it’s because I’m on my period. Or I walk outside with no shoes on. But so I’m really scared and South Carolina has some of the highest numbers