Anybody :( feeling upset at the moment :(

😭😭😭 4 years using no protection, 1 year trying properly opks, tracking ECT. I get positive ovulation tests every month. Me and my partner just want a little us just feel like rubbish. One of the things a women is meant to do, I cant:( I haven't been to the doctors because I'm too scared, I'm overweight aswell so I don't think they would help me anyway(I'm in the UK if that helps) . I've tried pressed for a few months and hasn't help. I had chlamydia when I was younger could of had it for about 2-3 or a year. Just worried that having it has ruined my chance of having kids I'm all clear of it now though. :( someone give me hope!!!!