Im sad

Posting anin because im kinda embarrassed ok so I've been married to my husband going on 3 years December 28th....we have a baby boy born 6-10-19 and while I was pregnant ye was afraid to hold me while we sleep his excuse was he was scared of hurting me 🤔 i know that sounds stupid but whatever fast forward to now my son is 4 months old and my husband still dony hold me or cuddle with me he even blocks himself off with pillows i cant reach him at all e dobt even sleep with the same blanket he has his own... Not asking for advice guess i just needed to vent this is hurting my feelings i always try to talk to him about it he says he doesn't do it on purpose but if i try to move the pillows or get some blanket he wakes up puts the pillows back and even turns around 🙁 im tired sorry for no punctuations/ bad grammar