Desperate! Acne remedies

So I've tried everything. Literally everything. Ive struggled with acne since I was 13.. I'm 19 now. Ive went to several dermatologists who have all given me creams and pills and tips and none of them have ever worked. I tried leaving my skin alone for months, home remedies, long term treatment, I've tried crying it away and just accepting it. My skin is in this constant state of break outs. It's gotten to the point where I have stayed home from class because I didn't want to be seen. I can't even look at my boyfriend properly because I'm so afraid of him noticing just how bad it is. My face is constantly red, bumpy, it breaks out in the middle of the day sometimes. I'll be in the car and look in the mirror and suddenly its one of those little white heads all red and angry about to pop. Does anybody have ANYTHING at all I can try?? Literally anything. I'm so tired of hiding it or trying to accept it. I'm so done with crying about my skin