my boyfriend calls me a lazy worthless piece of shit because I don’t have a job and didn’t finish highschool. i have no self esteem and haven’t for basically all my life, i have BPD and social anxiety and fell into a hole of depression in highschool i dropped out because I had no friends, motivation or any reason to do anything. i don’t ask my parents for help anymore because they’ve tried before and nothing works, it’s all just wasted their money on me. no medication, therapy or anything has helped me at all. ive just been sitting in the bathroom thinking of the best way to do it. I’ll be a burden for the rest of my life as long as I keep living, my boyfriend thinks im using him when in reality i don’t want anything except to feel loved but no one believes me about anything so . idk what else to do at this point