i hate sucking dick

i really really hate sucking dick. so much. it is like my worst fucking nightmare. sometimes i’ll just like lick my boyfriends dick so i feel like i’m doing something??? but even that, i think is gross. he loves eating me out and begs to. if i let him, he would go down on me 24/7. i feel so bad that i don’t return the favor but i truly can’t stand it.

is there anyone out there who just doesn’t suck dick in their hetero relationship and it’s fine? i’m afraid he will resent me someday