Embarrassing anal experience!!

Sooo embarrassing! My bf was watching me as I tried my new pure romance anal wand in my ass.... it had small balls starting at the tip, going down to larger ones. I put it in and was ducking myself in the ass...was so turned on . Then for whatever reason, I stopped but left it in for a few minutes. I tensed up and he pulled it out and there was a large shit stuck to the end of it!!! Omg he laughed and I just ran in the bathroom. Luckily we are comfortable around eachother but I’m just hoping he doesn’t bring it up. How do I get over it and have anal again with him?! It’s never happened before!!!