Boy rules... are mine too strict?

I’ve noticed that sometimes I create these “impossible rules” when dealing with guys. Rules that I usually find hard to keep.

Currently, I’m forcing myself to not communicate with this guy named Chris lol. We went on a date two days before I left for a two-week business trip and I guess I’m trying to tell myself that I don’t need to check in with a dude in order to keep him interested. Matched on an app, but we hit it off right away and we have a good friend in common. We set a date for our next dinner before the date was even halfway over. It was natural. I tried really hard not to rock his world but we couldn’t keep our hands off each other 🥴

So right before my flight to China I thanked him for the fun date and told him that I was excited for the date when I’m back. And he’s was really brief and wished me a good trip.

I KNOOOW that I should just wait until I’m back to re-communicate (our date it two days after I return). Even as I type this I’m taking my own advice... but does anyone do this - make these wild rules that you dont naturally want to keep, just for the purpose of feeling that you have some emotional strength? Lolol wow.

I think I’m scarred in a way. I once let this guy string me along for two month just for sex. He was like my dream guy on paper and he knew it. Such a busy” we scheduled a date almost a month in advanced, but getting him to just chat with me in the meantime was like humiliatingly difficult. Then after our first date after meeting, I never heard from him again.

You may not have any advice for me, but I needed to get this off my chest.