I’m over it..

My baby is 8 days old and honestly I’m over this whole breastfeeding thing. I’m either attached to a baby or pump all day. I have so much anxiety trying to take her out even to my lactation appointment. She latches but it takes her an hour to an hour and half to eat. She’s tiny so she isn’t sucking hard enough to get all the milk so that’s why I’ve been pumping to give her everything. I also have a 2 year old so I can’t sit around all day and just feed one baby. I was optimistic this time round because my first never latched and I didn’t produce enough for her either. But I’m exhausted just trying to keep up with feeding my second daughter.