Super nervous...

I'm only 2 months PP right now and I definitely have not hopped on the birth control quick enough and tonight my SO and I had unprotected sex twice and both times he pulled out and his cum landed on my a** and ran down so I'm really anxious because I know it's possible to get pregnant...

I feel really stupid for not being more cautious and I'm not sure how I feel right now... Whatever happens, happens right???????????

I really need some kind of advice or maybe someone to calm me down right now because I'm not prepared to be pregnant again and I just dont know how I couldn't just ask for birth control before tonight.... 😓😓😓😓😓