I hate myself for this, but I cannot seem to bring myself to congratulate my one friend on the birth of her child.

In the years we've been TTC, we've had in excess of 15 friends, family members and co-workers fall pregnant and have their babies.

I knew hers was coming, and I am so happy for her because I know it was a struggle for them too (it only took a year but they are over 35).

I just can't seem to overcome my own sadness to congratulate her. I got her announcement just as I was typing an email to our fertility clinic to make a follow up.

Please no nasty comments. I know my infertility is no one else's problem and I am happy for her. I'm also so sad for myself.

@Ashley I've literally said I'm happy for her, never have I said I'm not there for her. I'm just having a really hard day.

Update: I have congratulated her. I didn't leave this for days on end, it's only from today. I'm not a monster.