Alright today is the day ladies. I'm sick and tired of hiding behind long sleeves and long pants. I'm sick and tired of being tired, of being embarrassed, of not taking my shirt off in front of my fiancé. I'm sick of feeling like crap, of being the "big girl" everywhere I go. I'm sick of being embarrassed for my fiancé, of knowing that I'm not good enough for him, of knowing that he's way out of my league. I'm sick of struggling to find clothes that fit, of worrying if I'm small enough to fit in this chair, or that seat. I'm going to set a good example for my daughter, I'm not going to be the "big mom". I'm 5'1" and a whopping 250 at least, I'm not sure. I'm too afraid to weigh myself at this point. Last I checked I was 245 but I've definitely gained even more. Today is the day I finally get my shit together. Who's with me?