I'm just a little upset 😢

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My baby is 18 weeks 6 days old and has been by my side since birth. She's my first and due to PCOS possibly my only biological child.

I was in court today (not a defendant or anything) for about 7 hours so I trusted my MIL to look after her. This is the first time I've ever been without her and my heart was broken all day. I nearly cried several times.

Anyway, when I see her at lunch time, my MIL mentions that she and my SIL had been walking around the shops with her and while my MIL was somewhere, my SIL fed my daughter a few pieces of banana. We've never given her food before so this was her first time having anything 😭 I'm so heart broken that I missed it. She didn't even take any pictures. Apparently she loved it and was super cute 😭. When she found out I hadn't fed her before she was really apologetic though and said she presumed she was eating because her son was at that age (but last time I had saw her I mentioned I wasn't giving her solids yet. But this was a week or 2 ago)

I'm not just upset that I missed it but What if she had choked? Or had an allergic reaction? Why did she just presume she could feed her? I already felt really crappy about going to court today when I didn't HAVE to, and leaving her. I knew something was going to happen because my MIL is one of those "I've raised kids I know what I'm doing" types (I was leaving her in my MIL care, not my SIL so I didn't even think) but I'm still really upset.

I know it's stupid and I'm just upset over a few different things (my Step Mum passed away recently) but it just felt like the final straw that I didn't get to feed her solids for the first time 😭

Here's a picture of my little girl yesterday while we were trying to take some cute Halloweeny pics (which were an epic fail 😂)