Terrified of dying

Brittney • 25 • Jack 👶🏻 10.26.19 • Charlie 👶🏻 02.06.21 •Endometriosis • T1D

I have been fine my whole pregnancy.. no scares and no complications despite being type 1 diabetic. I have made it through those pregnancy milestones but now I know I am about to give birth in a few days (induction Thursday morning) and I am absolutely terrified of birth complications of which might cause me to DIE. My boyfriend has been saying he is so scared that something is going to go wrong but it never even crossed my mind until NOW that the scary parts of pregnancy aren’t quite over yet. To me, labour and delivery was the finish line that I was so excited to cross but now I’m terrified! I don’t know what the statistics are and I am not going to look them up.. saving myself the added anxiety. How do I calm down!!!???