lately I’ve been having trouble get over this guy and being depressed and overthinking things e.g why am I not good enough? What did I do?

We had been together for 4 yrs until he broke up with me in late January our relationship was getting tricky just arguments nothing that doesn’t happen you know but I was disrespected a fair bit physically and emotionally all the time whether I was at his or not when I was over there he’d be on the Xbox abit and then call me names and crap and other things similar I don’t wish to mention, after the brake up In January it was so hard for me I really had problems of letting him go I was so attached I loved him still after everything we’d been through but he told me he wasn’t coming back then 6 months later as I’m trying to move on like he wished and tried to forget about him he came back we dated for two months then he dumped me in this relationship I went through a miscarriage it felt like I lost not only him and another part of me he broke my heart I’m now still having trouble moving on can someone please help me?

Why do I love him so much and find it that hard to let go after everything that’s happened?

Weird thing is I miss him so much 😓😓😓

My love for him still hasn’t changed either