I’m the Worst Parent!

Trin

I have a 2 year old son my boyfriend and I have lived together since he was 13 months. I am always the one who has fed him, gave him baths, played with him, interacted with him, EVERYTHING! He has never bought him clothes, just recently bought him a pair of shoes for his birthday, rarely buys him toys or anything at that, has given him a bath maybe 5 times, fed him a handful of times, and plays with him around once a week. Our son had colic, and he’s still whiny and very emotional. He was crying for an unknown reason last night around 5-10 minutes and I had no idea why. His dad tries to pick him up and lay him in bed but I ask him to just leave him, #1 because he hadn’t eaten or had a bath yet. He gets super angry, starts cussing, and punches a hole in the wall. In my eyes he always runs and tries to parent him when he’s acting out or crying. He told me I was controlling and ridiculed me for the way IM raising our son. I feed him the same few things every night because he is very picky. He has 2 - 3 snacks after daycare until dinner because he loves to snack and eat. He practically called

If our son asks me for something and starts to whine, he will flat out tell him no and 1/2 of the time not even know what he’s asking for. Which makes it worse. He never “tries” to do anything with our son, the only thing I have ever commented on his the way he punishes him or treats him. I have to ask him to give our son a bath. I always have to ask him if I need his help. Which I never do because he acts as if he doesn’t want to. I try my best to raise our son, practically alone. I took the words he said to heart because I’m always trying my best and I can only do so much when I’m doing it alone with so much more on my plate. I work full time, I have to constantly keep the house clean, I’m an online student, and I’m trying to take care of my son the best I can. I know for certain there are things I can do better. But it’s hard for me to find new ways to do things, or find foods that my son will like. I just need advice ...... and some support.