So today is my first day back to work and Coltons first day back to daycare since Monday.

I’m so nervous, I’ve cried all morning. As y’all know, he’s been sick for a long while (almost 8 weeks) and it turned into bronchitis before anyone would help us. Thankfully we found a new doctor who helped us so it doesn’t get worse.

Yesterday, we found out he was allergic to penicillin. He’s been really fussy and fluctuating between normal and not too normal temps. He’s doing breathing treatments, a steroid and a new antibiotic. Found out yesterday that my dads papaw was deathly allergic to penicillin. So, that in itself was and is a VERY scary thought.

So here I am, at my desk crying like a baby because I want and need my baby in my arms. Is he crying? Is he hurting? Is he screaming because all he wants is to be held and to know he’s going to be okay?

I’m not sure. And it’s killing me. Bronchitis is not contagious so I had to come back to work after being off for 3 days. I just feel like a terrible mom right now.

Thanks for letting me vent.