Feeling hopeless

We have been trying to conceive since May.. I took Provera for two months, to help regulate my period. I was prescribed Metformin in August which I am currently supposed to be taking but recently stopped. I made the decision to stop the Metformin on my own, due to the frustration/depression I have been battling (not because of the medicine). I’m a mess for many reasons.. Why hasn’t anything worked? Why do I have to take medicine to do something my body is supposed to do on its own? Why do I have PCOS? Why am I being denied the opportunity to be a mom when that’s all I’ve ever wanted? Why can’t I give my husband a family? Why am I not “normal”? Where did I go wrong?

Let’s be real this is a huge self-pity post, but I would honestly appreciate any & all advice of how you got through the hard times.. Thank you ❤️