Mucus plug

FTM.

I’ve lost a pretty significant amount of mucus plug tonight. First I was like YES something’s happening.

Andddddd now I’m officially anxious. I understand it could still be a weeks although I am 39 weeks tomorrow.

I’m just scared, it’s happening. And I’m worried I’m not going to be strong enough to deal with the pain. Yes, I’m relieving an epidural but still, I suffer from major case of Generalized Anxiety Disorder and other panic attacks, so you can see why I just worry.. I worry probably the most about the epidural. I understand taking it too soon slows things down, but my doctor said sometimes she gives it to woman early because they are so anxious and tense that they can’t relax enough to let the body dilate. (I have a feeling I will be one of those women!!)

I want my son here, I know it’s going to be worth it, I know I won’t remember it as soon as it’s done. But, I’m still SO scared.