I was married for three years to a man who tore me apart. By the time I left, I was a shell of a person. I went from being happy go lucky to insecure, angry, and fearful. It’s been two years since my divorce.

To this day my mind is convinced that it was all true. Everything my ex would say about me and how awful I was. I fear all the time that everyone will leave me in the end and that my current (amazing) husband will decide I’m not worth love like my ex did.

I feel like I should be over this, moved on, and healed by now. Yet it still creeps in. It has gotten better as it use to be constant and now it’s only occasionally, but I’m so tired of it.

I want to be who I was before my ex. Without the scars, worthy of my husband, worthy of my friends.

I know in the end I will be fine. But my confidence is just so low....