I know people have bigger problems but...

Since the guy who I’m pretty sure was the love of my life broke up with me bc of our current positions in life as far as time and distance, I have felt so lost and like I don’t really matter. I know there are people out there with bigger issues but I have been through so much relationship based abuse, got out of it after years, and finally found someone who was right in front of me the whole time that I’m pretty sure could be my soulmate if I believed 100% in that. I know I’m only 21 and I have plenty of time but I just don’t know what to do now. I feel like I just don’t matter and that I’m going to be a broken, alone mess forever. I’m trying to act fine and I’m doing great until I’m alone. It feels like people don’t care enough to hear what I have to say about being sad so I just don’t talk about it at all. I’m just tired. Anyway sorry this is depressing, I just needed to put my thoughts somewhere.