My babygirl, Nicole Emma Goodrich, was born too early. I was only 4 months along. I don't understand why such an unjust tragedy has happened. My SO and I are in ruins. Destroyed. Everything was going so well. I thought finally after losing 3 other pregnancies that this was finally my rainbow baby but instead she's my angel baby. I'm just so devastated. She was 17cm long and weighed . 090kg. She was perfect. Had my ears and Daddy's nose. This pain will inflict me everyday, hell at this rate every breath I take for as long as I live will be a breath of devastation. I hope no one else has to know what the pain of gaining your first baby and losing her all within a half hours time. I don't know how to go on in life, not after this tragedy. I will never forget you babygirl. Mommy and Daddy love you so much, you were very loved by so many and everyone was rooting for you to make it honey.