Time is going by so slowly and my anxiety is high.

Busy working mom here and I still feel like time is moving in slow motion...One more week till I can get my HCG levels checked — and then I still have to wait another week to get a scan, maybe two. So I’m just obsessively testing with strips ever morning. I know I shouldn’t keep testing. But I have a chromosome issue (I’m fine, it’s just harder to conceive a healthy baby—it’s called RBT 13/14). Because of that I’m just expecting the worst and cannot get into a positive mindset. The strips are the only comfort I have. 🤦🏻‍♀️. Is it just me or is the test line getting a bit darker than the control line or at least getting to be the same...? Any advice for staying positive?