No judgement please

Advice please no judgement. Currently ive been depressed and being pregnant my depression has only gotten worse. I now don't really leave my room or my house, and i feel stuck because im not doing anything and knowing that just makes me want to do nothing but sleep and cry. My bf says it feels like hes caring for a child and a lump. Im just trying to be ok! Its been 4 months since i quit my job and its been really hard not finding one since and that alone is taking weight on my mentality, the fear of being a new mom is weighting my mentality down, my bf said doing laundry and cleaning the room is practice for mommy time and i just feel like him saying that and saying i dont do it makes me sound like im gunna be a horrible mom which is weighting my mental state even more. I try to not think of suicide and the one thing that stops me is my baby! She is innocent but i feel if it werent for her i wouldve done something and i just feel like nobody sees that im just trying to be OK, my bf never said im gunna be a bad mom i just feel like it. I feel stuck in a hole and everyday i just get deeper and deeper and idk how to get out! I know getting up and doing things just sounds easy but, even leaving the bed is hard on me. I spend my days with the shades covered so my room is complete darkness and usually sleep my days away. I want to be better, and do better but maybe i am all they say i am which makes things even harder..