I made a pros/cons list for my boyfriend

PROS:

*makes me happy (most of the time probably)

*funny

*attractive

*is affectionate with me

*sees a future with me, wants to marry me

*his smile always makes me smile

*he's so sweet (not always)

*Id be depressed without him

*I want to be with him

*i love him

*he loves me

CONS:

*never pays or offers to pay

*selfish in bed/when I say no to sex he still kind of pressures me to but after a while if i keep saying no he'll say ok

*doesn't follow through on promises

*didnt spend special occasions with me/anniversary, valentine's day, new years

*cancels plans always

*Im not a priority

*chooses mom over me

*we argue a lot

*i have relationship anxiety with him

*makes me cry

*i love him too much, he's my main priority with everything

*broke up with me once and emotionally attacked me but then right after apologized and said he didn't mean it

*Id be depressed without him

*I'm kind of emotionally unstable with him, i have sides i didn't know i had when i get mad or argue with him

*am i really happy with him?